Sometimes life feels like a bit of a pendulum, doesn't it?

We can feel the swing in one direction for a long time... but then, inevitably, there will be a swing in the other direction.

Life is always seeking balance and equilibrium and harmony.

There will be phases in our lives where we are all structure and strategic. 

✨And... we miss out on the magic of flow and creativity.

There are other phases where we are all inspiration and fluidity...

✨And we miss out on the support of systems and solidity.

I started my career as an economist. Did you know I have a Master's degree in Econ, as well as a Business degree? I was an expert in stats and data and financial forecasting. At the time, I had little room for magic in my life. And eventually... it left me feeling unfulfilled, depleted... and desperately seeking meaning in other ways. I was tired and worn out.

So I dove deep into my spiritual and intuitive journey. And I left all the structures and systems behind. It was truly ...

Can I be real with you around the idea of balance?

Honestly... I hate the idea and the concept. It makes me crazy. Even when the word slips out of my mouth "I need to find more balance...'". Words trailing...

I feel nauseous, stomach turning. It is a losing battle I don't think I will ever win.

Last week I was feeling some deep overwhelm. And I found myself telling the story of seeking balance. How I was out of balance, life was out of balance, and if only...

Ugh. Fuck balance. And honestly... I just don't want to play a game that I am bound to lose, and leaves me feeling horrible.

And as I was turning around these ideas in my mind... I came across of piece of writing from 4.5 years ago. I wrote it when I was freshly post-partum with baby number 3... my little angel Mira.

Can I share an excerpt of what I wrote with you?

Balance, to me, invokes an image of a tight rope. A thin line. Walking every so carefully, so deliberately, so much focus and concentration required.

Barely mak...